Cute necklace charms I would like to sell. Never used them! (Taken with instagram)
I’m just not digging life right now…if I was happy why would I be on tumblr lol
It’s days like today where I wish I lived out in the country, I’d like to ride my bike, but my house is kind of surrounded by traffic. Whatever. I’m on the internet instead lol. It feels so nice outside, though, I might just walk up to the square and get some coffee or something.
I don’t think you have a tumblr, which assures me that you definitely won’t stumble upon this. I wanted to write you a letter apologizing for how we have gone our separate ways. I have chosen not to speak with you because of the choices you have made. In our most recent of conversations, you have cursed at me for not immediately replying to you, you have cursed at me for not replying to you at all, and, when I was replying to you, you chose to fill our conversations with nothing but NEGATIVE commentary about your life. I love our past. I loved spending the night with you in high school. I loved doing nothing with you. But, we live different lives now, and you have shown me that just because I have a past with someone doesn’t mean they are safe enough to have a future with. I can’t get over the fact that you tried what we’ll call “hard drugs”, after all the times we talked shit about the people who do them. I can’t believe you did them and liked them and did them again. And around your own kid. Every time I talk to you that’s what I imagine. You sitting there fucked up with your kid. That’s so scary and sad to me. I can’t say anything to you, you would get so angry. You always get SO pissed at anyone who tells you you are wrong or insults you in any way. I feel like I am being judgmental, but I can’t even help it…..There are so many different people in the world that I can barely take any of them seriously. So, I’m sorry that we have drifted apart. But that’s why. And you’re not the only one. All of the people in our circle, I can’t talk to () because I can’t stop thinking about why she stays with her SHIT FUCK of a boyfriend. I can’t talk to () because I’m scared that she doesn’t even like me, because of you!!! I’m tired of the stress this has caused me. I’m ready to be over it, like you are. I am going to lose so many followers by turning my tumblr into a journal, but I really don’t give a hoot, because it feels good to get things off of my chest (indirectly lol)
Days are getting shorter and shorter….but time isn’t making things better or worse. Just stuck here in the middle with my hand resting on my hip…for right now..
My favorite time to post these silly little personal blogs is when I first wake up. I have a pretty strong feeling the only people who read them probably have no idea who I am or why they matter, but that is fine, they are just like little journal entries to me. Today is Wednesday and I have a whole day ahead of me (no work today), Iyam going take the 8:45am class at Hot Yoga in an hour, which I believe is the only (affordable) yoga studio I’ve yet to try in this town. It’s practiced in a sauna room, which is intense and awesome. Other than that, I don’t have a whole lot planned today. I really wish the flea market was open on Wednesdays, I am really in the mood to get outside today, maybe I will go feed the ducks :)
If you see anyone named Mr Magic at a Chik Fila near you soon, tell him he sucks. He doesn’t even do magic. He blows up shitty balloon animals.
falling asleep earlier and earlier every night. Panera has shelled me into a freaking earlybird. I went to bed at 10:30 last night…..10:30?! I didn’t even go to bed that early when I was in high school lol. It’s weird, but it feels so good to be up and doing things this early in the day. It’s 7:30 right now! Today I have a big day ahead! I’m hoping to go to community yoga at 10, after which I will be packing for Madisonville, for Will’s show tonight. I don’t know anyone from Madisonville and I’ve never even been there, but I have a strange feeling the turnout is going to suck. I know the boys will play well, I just hope they get a decent crowd. We are supposed to get a room at the place we are playing tonight, which will be mad awesome, I HOPE THEY HAVE A SWIMMING POOL :D I feel like I’m going on a mini vacation (really, I am just overly excited.)
I know it’s 8:30 in the morning but I want some Italian soda anyways